Monday, July 30, 2012

Stuck at home

Thank you all for the comments and inquiries.

H is stable right now (which is good), but the quality of his life, well, in a word, sucks. The usual: sick, in pain, tired all the time, forgetful, somewhat know the usual.

I received a summons for jury duty next month. I've done it before and found it interesting and a nice break from the usual grind.

I was talking with H last night about jury duty and he said, "Now, don't forget your responsibility to me."

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"Well, if they want to sequester you, you have to tell them that you can't," he said, "because of me"

"Oh, I see," I said. And the following immediately came out of my mouth, " It's really sucks that you can hardly leave the house because of your health and it's hard for me to get out the house for the same reason...few trips, no social events, no entertainment events, and not even jury duty."

"I'm sorry," H said, "that your stuck here with me."

He looked very distressed.

"I know honey; I know that you would change it if you could...but you can't and neither can I. Let's just make the best of it we can."

Acceptance is very, very hard for both of us.

But, right now, I’m just focusing on making myself happy as I can and working on my bucket list. Many of the items on my list either require a functional partner or no partner...those will have to wait.