Anniversary

Today is our 23-year anniversary and I am not in a celebrating mood.

Sunday before last, H went into the hospital again with seizures. He came home only a few days ago. Each time he goes into the hospital for seizures, it takes a lot out of him. And me.

He get's less and less functional and cogent and I get more and more tired. Sadly, his care needs are increasing when I'm beginning to stumble from being so tired all the time.

And work? It is a joke that I'm even coming to the office now and then. No work gets done...I'm too upset.

Just how much longer can this go on?